Jan 14, 2011
Just a few reasons why recovery IS worth it:
- being able to smile and truly mean it
- being able to be honest
- truly feeling for the first time
- having the ability to love and let others love you
- the future (husband,babies,career)
- being able to go out to eat and not feel guilty
- not being bound to a scale and numbers
- your beautiful face is able to look up at the sun, not stuck in a toilet
- your personality will come back and you’ll learn to be happy
- your life will not be dictated by the number on the scale
- you can laugh again
- you’ll enjoy spending time with friends and family
- healthy glow :)
Jan 15, 2011
Reasons for my recovery:
-I miss the free feeling, the feeling that anything is possible. Ed takes that away. I want it back.
-I want a family more than anything. A little girl that I can swing around in the air and take out to eat.
-I want a husband that I can eat my wedding cake with.
-With ed, it’s hard to even go to work let alone be successful. I want to be successful, damnit.
-In order to be a psychologist, I have to be mentally healthy myself.
-When I purge too much, it hurts to sing, and I love singing!
-I don’t want my kids banging on the bathroom door saying, “Mommy come play with us!” while I puke my guts out.
-I can’t let my parents down. I can’t die before them, it would break their hearts.
-Be small and under the ground, or healthy size and LIVING?
-I need to get through college, if I relapse in college, I’ll waste money AND time.
-I can’t be an inspiration if I fall back into the eating disorder.
-I can hardly remember half of high school because of the eating disorder, I don’t want to miss the rest of my life!
-I need to accept my body for how it is, and love myself.
Jan 15, 2011
Gaining: Reasons to Recover
There are so many reasons that I can think of to recover from an eating disorder, but the most important one to me is this:
I WANT TO GAIN!
I can almost hear the voices in your head and see the horror on your face. “GAIN? Why in the world would she want to gain? This chick is insane!”
Gaining to someone with an eating disorder is akin to someone with arachnophobia being covered in spiders, or taking someone terrified of heights skydiving. To someone who has been under ED’s power for so long, the word is a frightening taboo that causes fear and panic to the core of our disorder.
But here’s the truth: gaining is worth it. When you decide to take the step to recover from your eating disorder you will gain so many things including (but certainly not limited to):
-A social life
-Acceptance of yourself
-Enjoying food instead of fearing it
-Beauty (yes, inner and outer!)
-Goals, dreams, aspirations
So yes, I want to gain! I want to LOSE my eating disorder and GAIN all of these things. They may come with some curves, but you know what? Healthy is beautiful, recovery is beautiful, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
Jan 15, 2011
Here are MY reasons to recover:)
For the first time in YEARS, I can actually say I’m happy and mean it!I can stand up, turn around, jump up and down, do whatever I want without feeling like I’m going to pass out.I can LIVE. I don’t feel I have to hide anymore.I can go to parties, shopping, and out to dinner with people.I can truly love people and feel their love in return.I can think clearly!
My smile isn’t fake anymore, it’s real. And that smile isn’t yellow from only drinking coffee & tea & purging.I have more important things to do than count calories!My eating disorder made me isolate myself and I don’t deserve to be so alone.
I don’t deserve to live a life of hell! I CAN LIVE WITHOUT AN EATING DISORDER:)